Love is not Jealous

Love is not Jealous

Lately my kids have been all about "fairness". They deem my generosity toward another kid as "unfair", while all I'm really trying to do is love on my kids with a few extra M&M's when (I thought) no one was looking. What I found myself telling them is to focus on what they are receiving, not what someone else has received. 

And I stopped.

Trust & Persist

Trust & Persist

"Known." 

"Hmm," I thought. I like that. It seems like something I would have come up with.

I was using a word generator to give me my "Word of the Year". It was my first time using the generator. In the past, I had received a word in prayer to help guide my steps for the year - last year's word being Authenticity. The generator came up with the word "Known", and though I was loving this positive, warm and fuzzy word, something told me that God wasn't going to let me off the hook this year without some genuine reflection. He wanted to give input on the upcoming word of the year and the direction of my life.  

An Unplanned Pregnancy

An Unplanned Pregnancy

"Pregnant."

 

It’s a word so many long to read, but one that wasn’t even on my radar. 

 

"Pregnant."

 

I kept waiting for the “not” to appear before the word on my digital test as it had done before. I was only 4 days late. It couldn’t be. 

 

Pregnant.  

 

Thats the word that remained. Because that’s what I was.

Ignoring a Problem Doesn't Make It Go Away

Ignoring a Problem Doesn't Make It Go Away

I tend to ignore my sickness until my body absolutely forces me to deal with it. This happened last week when I decided to eat raw tomatoes turning my body into one big hive. For 4 days I itched beyond anything I've experienced before. Red and swollen, I made my way to the doctor's office for a steroid shot to deal with something I should have been forward-thinking enough to prevent on my own. 

Living the Readings

Living the Readings

I'm not exactly sure why, but I woke up this morning feeling just... off.

 

I wandered, getting dressed for mass, convincing 2 of my 4 kids to attend with me, and found myself there, in the pew, listening to the first reading for today: You duped me O Lord, and I let myself be duped. 

Wow. I thought, forgetting how bold the prophets were with the Lord in the Old Testament.

Authenticity

Authenticity

At the beginning of this year, like a few other people I know, I prayed for a word to come to me as my "theme for the year". What is it that the Lord wants from me? What should I be working on? It was difficult not to go into an endeavor like this with preconceived notions or visions of grandeur, but still, I attempted to approach the Lord with simplicity of heart, truly desiring to know his will for me. 

Properly Yoked

Properly Yoked

"Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened,
and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me,
for I am meek and humble of heart;
and you will find rest for yourselves. 
For my yoke is easy, and my burden light."

-Matthew 11:28-30

This Gospel verse from today's reading seems to be a bit of a theme for my life lately.